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Jun. 7th, 2018 12:21 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
highlord_luciaTo have Sir Kingsley back was a short-lived feeling of relief. He no entrusts leadership of Lights Hammer to me. I thought..it was only going to be temporary, until he returned.. but Kingsley's been through far too much. How can I argue with him to lead when he is clearly not ready mentally? The man has come back from the dead.
I blame myself for his condition.. Its true, I found him but only with guidance from his late father's spirit. Had I found Kingsley even a moment later, he could have....
How did I let that happen?
My strong instinct, intuition, were off the charts...the Light itself was telling me he was still alive, that he was not dead...Yet, we wasted precious time mourning an empty casket. I was furious. No one told me he was "found". I had to ask questions to learn that for myself. It was as if they've given up on him without informing me. Since I took his place, I had other responsibilities...I...I couldn't look for him myself.
I have lost a mentor before, I won't be able to cope with loss again. The first mentor I ever had...was not only my mentor, but a best friend. A family. A comrade. A lover. Drayven. Everything I knew about the Light, I learned from him. When he died in battle, the Light nearly abandoned me, but I was strong.. Had I lost Kingsley, especially in a matter that the Forsaken could take another special person away, I'm not too sure the Light would come to me..
But I mustn't think this way. Kingsley is back and that is all that matters right now. I'll protect him.
Kingsley wants me to work with the Sacred Council, get to know one another. I probably know Psalmodius the best of all. He is a kind man, though he sure likes to drink. I'm not quite sure how Kingsley was a student of his! Kingsley never drinks!
I know Shraan, the Archmage, pretty well, but it could be better. His son, Shraanov, has so much energy! It can be a bit exhausting, but its also refreshing to work with someone so young...at least, I think Shraanov is young? I'm not sure how old draenei are...but he definitely has a young soul. Shraan's daughter Shraanaria...she is the exact opposite. She's quite serious...maybe more serious than Kingsley!
Goldmayne...He is a gentleman, and I trust him very much. He is...well. Its best not towrite evertyhing. I don't know who could be reading this. But he's on the run. He's wanted by the king himself. I know he was framed... We are working hard to find out who is responsible... we'll see..
There are still a few council members I have yet to meet. So I'll have to change that...I want everyone to be comfortable with each other. Sir Kingsley was not wrong about this. However, I look forward to getting aquainted with Q'tokk the least...
I don't understand my mentor. How does he expect me to trust the Death Knight? Kingsley tells me that they fought side by side together for the Alliance... True, but you know.. I fought alongside Drayven, too. We were inseparable. Now he serves the Banshee Queen, long before she acquired the mantle of Warchief for the Horde, I'm sure. Q'tokk is not Horde, but I don't think he is for the Alliance either. He blatantly disrespects me both in person and when I request...DEMAND... to see him, as the Highlord of Lights Hammer. The bastard made a point to show me the only Highlord he serves is an undead one. I cannot stand him. Kingsley says Q'tokk has always been this way and the most important thing for me to know is that they fought side by side together... I think Kingsley has an unhealthy attachment to this man... Kingsley wasn't there during his service when everyone presumed he was dead. Q'tokk was outright nasty and disrespectful. Thats how he speaks to a, presumed, fallen comrade?! It was nauseating. How can one of our own act that way? Towards his leader? Towards his comrade?! And I'm expected to just ignore him...?!
I need to end this, I'm getting mad. I'll just have to trust Kingsley's judgment..he is no fool.
I blame myself for his condition.. Its true, I found him but only with guidance from his late father's spirit. Had I found Kingsley even a moment later, he could have....
How did I let that happen?
My strong instinct, intuition, were off the charts...the Light itself was telling me he was still alive, that he was not dead...Yet, we wasted precious time mourning an empty casket. I was furious. No one told me he was "found". I had to ask questions to learn that for myself. It was as if they've given up on him without informing me. Since I took his place, I had other responsibilities...I...I couldn't look for him myself.
I have lost a mentor before, I won't be able to cope with loss again. The first mentor I ever had...was not only my mentor, but a best friend. A family. A comrade. A lover. Drayven. Everything I knew about the Light, I learned from him. When he died in battle, the Light nearly abandoned me, but I was strong.. Had I lost Kingsley, especially in a matter that the Forsaken could take another special person away, I'm not too sure the Light would come to me..
But I mustn't think this way. Kingsley is back and that is all that matters right now. I'll protect him.
Kingsley wants me to work with the Sacred Council, get to know one another. I probably know Psalmodius the best of all. He is a kind man, though he sure likes to drink. I'm not quite sure how Kingsley was a student of his! Kingsley never drinks!
I know Shraan, the Archmage, pretty well, but it could be better. His son, Shraanov, has so much energy! It can be a bit exhausting, but its also refreshing to work with someone so young...at least, I think Shraanov is young? I'm not sure how old draenei are...but he definitely has a young soul. Shraan's daughter Shraanaria...she is the exact opposite. She's quite serious...maybe more serious than Kingsley!
Goldmayne...He is a gentleman, and I trust him very much. He is...well. Its best not towrite evertyhing. I don't know who could be reading this. But he's on the run. He's wanted by the king himself. I know he was framed... We are working hard to find out who is responsible... we'll see..
There are still a few council members I have yet to meet. So I'll have to change that...I want everyone to be comfortable with each other. Sir Kingsley was not wrong about this. However, I look forward to getting aquainted with Q'tokk the least...
I don't understand my mentor. How does he expect me to trust the Death Knight? Kingsley tells me that they fought side by side together for the Alliance... True, but you know.. I fought alongside Drayven, too. We were inseparable. Now he serves the Banshee Queen, long before she acquired the mantle of Warchief for the Horde, I'm sure. Q'tokk is not Horde, but I don't think he is for the Alliance either. He blatantly disrespects me both in person and when I request...DEMAND... to see him, as the Highlord of Lights Hammer. The bastard made a point to show me the only Highlord he serves is an undead one. I cannot stand him. Kingsley says Q'tokk has always been this way and the most important thing for me to know is that they fought side by side together... I think Kingsley has an unhealthy attachment to this man... Kingsley wasn't there during his service when everyone presumed he was dead. Q'tokk was outright nasty and disrespectful. Thats how he speaks to a, presumed, fallen comrade?! It was nauseating. How can one of our own act that way? Towards his leader? Towards his comrade?! And I'm expected to just ignore him...?!
I need to end this, I'm getting mad. I'll just have to trust Kingsley's judgment..he is no fool.
